Restlessness. Anxiety? Which word to use to describe this constant inner nagging that goes on like a ceaselessly ticking clock hand.
I will like to slow down time so i can watch the clock hands move - tick - tick - tick - tick away and I ticking away with them.
Time moves too fast. Or so it seems. When there is ample of it, it goes a waste; when there is scarcity of it, it is useless. Then how does one deal with time without letting it get ahead of oneself so that one does not feel left behind?
If I stop time will the clock stop ticking? For that the clock will require the knowledge of time. But clock has no knowledge or connection to time other than what the society has given it. That is why stopping the clock does not freeze time. But here is lies the clue to freedom from time - time is time to me because I think of it as time. If I live in eternity, there is no time ... no matter how fast the clock ticks or how much it slows down.
Eternal - forever - always - ... - that which will always be - timeless - what is that? That which always is is just this - this momnt right here, right now. This moment - fragile, dying, being reborn every moment, every instant, verily insistent of its existence. Ignored but persistent. Transparent but solid. Foundation for all hope that is future, which is not. Bearer of all past that is memories, which is not. This moment. This timeless, precious, little, ignored, tiny fragile piece of endless existence. This moment is eternal. Being in this moment is eternity.
